Thursday, July 28, 2005

My Night and Morning

6pm - Feed the baby, hand him to Matt, and then fall asleep, not even caring about dinner.

9pm - Wake up. Jack napped in the swing for an hour while I slept. I feed the baby. I can't lay him down because he needs his meds in an hour.

10pm - Give Jack his meds, then feed him again and lay down with him. We both fall asleep.

Midnight - Feed Jack.

2am - Feed Jack. He cries, arches his back, kicks his legs and refuses to go back to sleep. I change him, then rock him in my arms until eventually he relaxes and is out.

3:30am - Feed Jack.

5:45am - Wake to the feeling of liquid rushing under me. I smell it. It's only pee, thank God. The diaper was too loose around his legs. I fix the diaper and feed Jack who is now screaming again. I then put a towel down on my side of the bed as I'm too tired to change the sheets. Please baby, just a little bit more sleep. He stops crying, but is now up for the duration. Matt gets up for work, changes Jack, gives him his meds, then gives him back to me as he leaves.

7am - I feed Jack and he finally falls back asleep, so I do too.

7:30am - Janie is up and climbing on my bed. "Good morning Jackie Jackie Jackie." Janie pleeease don't wake him up. But it's too late. I've got to get up and get myself, Janie, and Jack dressed and ready for the day.

10:00 - Feed Jack.

10:30 - Lay him down in his crib. He's exhausted. Right now he's not sleeping, but not crying either.

I don't understand what keeps him going. Yesterday he took only 3 1-hour naps, at 10am, 1pm and 6pm, and that's it. Then at night, he's up to eat nearly every 2 hours, and sometimes crying. I don't feel any new teeth coming in. A couple of times I've felt like calling the pediatrician and asking him to check him out, but I can't imagine bringing him in just because he won't sleep. Babies sleep sometime, right?

Meanwhile I'm still exhausted. Why does he eat so much more during the night than during the day? And how can he still be awake?

While Matt had offered on the phone yesterday to take Jack for the night, when bedtime came around, it wasn't meant to be. HOWEVER, Matt has the day off tomorrow (thank goodness because he's been working the past few Sundays). So tonight I will sleep in the other room and Matt will sleep with Jack. It's not as easy as that, but I've got to try. My pride, my vanity, my desire to want to be the good mother are being taken over by complete sleepiness and inability to do anything. My whole day is spent taking care of cranky Jack and not working or cleaning or doing anything else. He's my priority, but I need a break and without sleep or naps, I'm barely alive.

I don't get it. I hear him right now, still awake, starting to fuss. Hey kid, it's nap time. Sleep. At least one of us needs to.

Got to go, he's crying.

15 Comments:

Blogger webhill said...

Well, I won't speak for Jack - but my 6 mo old Lilah eats much more at night than during the day because during the day, I am so busy running around schlepping the older kids hither and yon, or the other kids are doing so many cool and interesting distracting things, Lilah doesn't get much chance to nurse quietly and in a relaxed manner during the day!

11:45 AM  
Anonymous Yatima said...

Gro-o-owth spu-urt. It'll kill you, but it won't last.

Eat protein! Rare steak, roast chicken, edamame!

Glad you have a plan to get some sleep. Sleep is good.

11:59 AM  
Anonymous Julia said...

"Remember, your air mask first."

Wise words (simple, I know) said to me at an important time when I was ignoring my needs and it showed. In everything. Including my parenting. And that defeated the purpose.

5:34 PM  
Blogger Carmen said...

Well, I think I'd just mention it to the doctor, just to be on the safe side. I know I've taken my kids in for similar lack of sleep, and sometimes it does mean something. Maybe some tylenol to be on the safe side?

Hang in there. My latest child, #6, has an autistic spectrum disorder that has really affected her sleep. It sucks to be a mom with a lack of sleep.

6:19 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I would mention it to the doctor. The meds can have side effects, at least with my daughter they did.

Marla

8:55 PM  
Anonymous Carolyn said...

Ah yes, the put down a towel so at least I can sleep more before changing the sheets. Again. I think I washed our bedsheets more than the the crib sheet.

Looks like you are figuring out the tricks. My first would have long naps but this second one was for a long time a 45 min to an hour sort of guy. I would go in and look and him, saying, aren't you TIRED! Then he would smile at me. What can you do?

Certainly work out a schedule where your husband gets the baby some times. Just having any time to stretch out and rest for 10 more minutes was a sanity saver.

8:49 PM  
Blogger Anna said...

I don't know how you do it. You may not feel it sometimes, but you're a remarkable woman. I do hope you can get some sleep, someday. Be well!

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